I have never been particularly interested in photography but recently I saw that Dove had a promotion which offered a free camera for the cost of shipping, so I ordered one with the idea if we really enjoy it we can get a better one. So far I have not taken anything too interesting. Most of the shots are goof ups as I tried to take a picture from the truck of a bear and wound up taking the side mirror instead, or the crack in the windshield instead of the mountains. It doesn't take great pictures of course but I will persevere and see if I can develop a taste for it. My husband was quite a photography buff at one time and maybe I can encourage him to take it up again, as the new cameras are so much cheaper and we can print or save etc ourselves which is good because we have rolls of film from yester year that still need developing.
There was a book included in the package about self esteem. The idea is to help women and girls change the way they perceive themselves and free them from beauty stereotypes. I find that even at sixty I still am highly motivated to keep up appearances. I think obsessively so actually. I hate having my photo taken because I have yet to come to terms with the signs of aging especially as I tend to think I am about 19 on the inside. The book suggests we find the 'true you'. Uncovering who you really are which is not about the outside at all is it?
It asks if I am satisfied with the way my body looks. NO. I would like to drop some weight, that spare tire and tummy bothers me no end.
It asks if I could change something about the way I look. YES I hate my double chin.
I tried to take a self portrait but all I could see were the bags under my eyes and the chin so I am sticking with the one I have on the blog which was taken July 8, 1998, which was my wedding photo to my current husband.
Funny that I am so hard on myself, I wonder how others see me. I have a friend (she does not read this blog) who is confined to a wheelchair, who has lost a child in a horrific accident, whose husband has had a stroke and she would be considered poor by many. Although she is not pretty or beautiful in the conventional way, in fact most people would pass her over in the looks department, she is to me one of the most beautiful people I have ever seen. Her inner beauty shines out for all the world to see. She is radiant in spite of pain and misfortune. She has a strong Christian faith and she is the best advertisment for it that I have seen.